Thursday, October 4, 2012

First Freeze

We’re supposed to have our first freeze tonight (tomorrow?  Can’t really remember.  Forgive me- frankly, I’m lucky I still remember my name and address…  at least I think I do…)

Usually the first freeze makes me a little sad.  From that point on, it’s a gradually decreasing slope to the depths of winter.  And while the warm clothes, hot chocolate, and sparkling snow sound somewhat appealing, thoughts of driving in the snow, dirty snow that never melts, and the forbidden fruit of outdoor playgrounds take over.

This year, though, this year I’m excited for winter.

This year, I’m hoping Jack Frost will also bring us a change in our luck.

For the first time ever, I can officially say that I’m over summer.

Since May, we’ve fixed our heater (yes, we do live in Colorado and can have a blizzard in the same week as we need the air conditioner), fixed our air conditioner, replaced two computers, replaced a camera, fixed random (expensive) things on both cars, dog broke his arm, our television died…

But more emotionally stressful was our summer for the girls- dermatology for Addy, sleep study for Piper, ENT for Piper, Addy’s little seizure fiasco (and the subsequent dozen doctor visits including EEGs, EKGs, Neurologists, Cardiologists, Pediatricians), Piper’s tonsillectomy and four night hospital stay, Piper’s month-long recovery from said tonsillectomy, funny heart murmur discovered at Piper’s tonsillectomy, and now, of course, Piper’s drama with pneumonia.

That’s enough for one season, don’t you think?

I’m over summer.

I’m ready for a few months filled with these smiles!

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Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Life Lessons

Good things I learned while we were in the hospital:

  • I’m capable of sleeping on half of a hospital bed.  Not half long-way of a hospital bed, but as in the bottom, 3’x3’ part of the hospital bed.  What we don’t do for our kids.
  • Those isolation gowns they have to wear when your kid is on droplet precautions?  They cost $7-$8 a piece.  I’d estimate that we went through about 200 (no exaggeration here, folks…)  I don’t know whether to be proud that we got our money’s worth or sad that I didn’t get that money…
  • A Netflix subscription is glorious when you’re stuck in a dark room while your kid sleeps.  It’s particularly nice when you have a tablet to play on at the same time. 
  • I really wish we had the tablet when Piper was in the NICU.
  • Partially deflated Mylar balloons will re-inflate in the morning sun coming through a window.  I really like that sound.
  • Long hospital stays are good for making you enjoy the little things.  Either that or your mental status is teetering on the brink of despair, causing you to enjoy things like the crinkling sound of a Mylar balloon re-inflating in the morning sun…
  • Always, always order snacks for your kids- making sure to get things you’ll eat if they don’t want it.  I didn’t figure this out until the last day; I could have gotten a lot of bags of baked Lay’s…
  • Nearly the only good thing about your child being on isolation is that the Man With the Book Cart lets you KEEP his books- at least when you’re in the PICU.  Piper’s book collection grew by about a dozen while we were there.
  • TLC, the cable channel, is not good for my judgmental side (we don’t do cable- this is a whole new world for me...)  My Gypsy Wedding?  Toddlers and Tiaras???  Honey Boo Boo???  Can someone say “Butter Sketti”??? 
  • Six pair of clean socks do not make up for a missing clean shirt.
  • Hospital staff is very good at paying close attention to every detail of your child- and somehow, at least seemingly, miss the fact that you’ve worn the same clothes two days in a row.  Either that, or they’re really good at pretending not to notice.  I’ll take it.
  • Morning rounds are a LOT like they are in Gray’s Anatomy.  I had to keep myself from laughing when a resident got grilled by the attending.  …and it made me wonder what the attending’s nickname was.  I kinda really want to know…
  • Kid having trouble sleeping at night?  Have no fear- they’ll figure out a way to entertain themselves.  Going on rides up and down, back and forth, on the bed is great fun.  As was the Mysterious Dancing, Glowing Foot… 

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Tuesday, October 2, 2012

In a Dramatic Turn of Events…

Guess who came home today?

DSC_0352Coming Home driveway art courtesy of Adalynn- with, maybe, a little help from Nana.

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…WITHOUT OXYGEN!!!

They turned her off last night at about midnight and she stayed in the lower 90’s all night.  I was so stinking excited that I’m not sure we weren’t singing during breakfast.  The doctor came in around 9 and asked if I was comfortable going home.  After watching Piper tear the room apart for the hour and a half leading up to that, I thought home sounded DIVINE.  We were outta there by 10:30. 

Of course, tonight, I’m a nervous wreck; pretty sure I’ll be up checking her every 24 minutes, but I’m (almost) sure it’ll be worth it.

balloonI decided we all needed some good ol’ out in the sunshine time this afternoon- Piper frolicked in the front yard with the balloon from Maggie and Rachel- she was very happy that her hospital room décor could come home with her!

I’m having a hard time processing everything that happened during her stay there; she was in shock (her body temperature varied from 35 degrees Celsius to 40 degrees Celsius- and when she had a fever, it was difficult to control), her carbon dioxide levels were on the verge of way too high (they were too high, but her body was producing a suitable amount of sodium bicarbonate to protect itself), she wasn’t allowed out of bed for over 10 days, the attending told me more than once that “she should be okay- so long as she doesn’t throw us any more curve balls…”, she was unable to stand for longer than a few seconds her first two days out of the PICU…  I’m trying to be grateful that she’s okay, and that she’s better!  But it’s hard trying to “get over” how sick she really was.  And trying not to fear her getting this sick again.  I’d really like to know HOW she got whatever-this-was so that I could keep it from happening again.  Obviously I can’t have that; I’m afraid it may be a long winter.  There’s a teeny chance that, when we were forcing medication down her after her tonsillectomy, we got some down into her lungs which eventually got infected.  She could have been fighting it for a while and she just couldn’t keep it up.  Her pediatrician wants us to do a swallow study to rule out aspiration, just to be sure, but the antibiotic that appeared to help doesn’t specifically target aspiration pneumonia (the second antibiotic that she was on DID, but it didn’t seem to make her any better) and she’s never showed any symptoms (plus she had a study done when she was an infant which was clear.) 

Unanswered questions are hard. 

But I’m sure glad I had this view tonight…

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Monday, October 1, 2012

Where We’ve Been

…at least for the last two weeks…

Two and a half weeks ago, Piper started feeling a little “punky.”  She was just mopey, a little quiet, and started getting a little cough.  I figured over the weekend, she could rest up and be good to go for school on Monday.  After all, the drop-off on Friday was the easiest one yet and she was finally settling into the whole school routine. 

Monday came around and she acted sick.  Not terrible sick, but sick enough that I wanted her pediatrician to see her and check her out.  Low grade fever for a few days and that same cough (which had gotten worse.)  They tested her oxygen levels (which were fine) and did a chest xray to confirm Pneumonia.  Fantastic.  She was sent home on antibiotics (first time ever) with hopes that maybe she’d be able to go back to school by the end of the week.

Tuesday I really thought she was feeling a little better; thought that, with a good night’s sleep, she’d be rebounding the next day.

9:30 rolls around and I go in to check on her before I went to bed.  She was definitely acting a little out of it (tossing around, breathing fast, etc) so I grabbed our fingertip pulse oximeter to check her.  Just for my own presence of mind.  First toe I checked said 70.  Knowing that it was false, I tried the other foot.  70.  I picked her up and took her to the living room- surely our oximeter was just not working.  Tried the fingers.  Both of them.  70.  She was dusky, breathing really fast and through her belly.  I tossed a coat on and ran her up to Urgent Care figuring (hoping) that the O2 level wasn’t reading correctly.  We checked in and they put her on the pulse ox- 70.  She was considered “critical” so as soon as we stepped out of the check-in room, we were swarmed by over a dozen physicians, nurses, respiratory therapists…  Piper, of course, was terrified.  It was ugly.  After a good hour, we finally got oxygen on, an IV in (who knew that a 23 pound child in significant respiratory distress who’s been sick for several days could actually out-muscle a team of EIGHT trained professionals???), and an xray taken.  They said that her xray didn’t look much worse than the day before, so they were hoping that maybe she was just dehydrated, which makes pneumonias worse.  We were admitted for the night with hopes that the next day would be better.

She didn’t do terribly that night; but then again, she didn’t get to go to sleep until almost 2.  They started on IV antibiotics and watched her oxygen.  We were given the choice of staying there at the outpost ER for Children’s (which is great- but it’s not a true inpatient facility) or transfer to the main campus.  Once her O2 requirements started increasing, I opted for the transfer since I figured she’d be there for a few days.  Her pediatrician is at that campus, and I really like having them around because they have direct say in her care.  Besides, the accommodations, although further from home, are a little more homey. 

We didn’t end up getting there until after 5 (thanks to a terrible wreck on the highway) and she settled in for the night.  They actually got her O2 down a little overnight and I was feeling better about things.  In all the hullaballoo, they lost her IV first thing the next morning, so she had to be poked again, which, of course, was awful.  That afternoon they did another blood draw to check her levels and something (I have no idea what at this point) was pretty off, so they wanted another that night.  The nurse tried to pull it from her IV (the IV that was less than 12 hours old) and blew it.  Again.  Long, horror, story short, she screamed her little lights out for a LONG time that night.  They finally got her back to her room and put her on high flow oxygen, and things started going downhill.  Quickly.

Thankfully Respiratory was there setting up the new oxygen system so he was watching the whole thing go down.  She went down so quickly that we thought something was wrong with the oxygen tank.  It was finally decided that they’d call the Rapid Response Team (think 911 within the hospital) and a team from the PICU was rushed up to evaluate her.  Once they got here (a team of about 9) she evened out some and her O2 was teetering on the edge of needing to go to the PICU.  We decided that she could stay on the floor and try to get some sleep instead of going downstairs.  Right as they were getting ready to leave, Piper started dropping again.  So, our decision was made for us and we headed to the PICU.

P1050228PICU digs- and death-warmed-over Piper…

We stayed there for a week.

A solid week.

P1050230The Mask- and one of the first times she was willing to sit up in about four days.  Didn’t last long, but it was still good to see!

She ended up being pretty heavily sedated because she was so terrified of everyone touching her.  She would burst into fits when someone even came near her with a stethoscope.  It was entirely heart wrenching.  The next morning she was given a PICC line, put on CPAP, and given an NG tube since she wasn’t allowed to eat with the CPAP.  She was also started on a stronger antibiotic.  She slept for almost 36 hours straight.  She had chest xrays at least once a day checking out the pneumonia.  On Saturday they decided that she wasn’t making any ground with the CPAP and decided to switch her to BiPAP.  She stayed on that through Wednesday.  They also started a second broad-spectrum antibiotic, which actually ended up helping.  Thursday, after a few trials with nasal cannula, she was finally given the go-ahead to ditch that darn mask!  She even got to get her hair washed; I spent an hour and a half (no joke) detangling that horrific matted hair at the back of her head from the mask (note: if your child is ever on CPAP or BiPAP for an extended period of time, always comb their hair when you can!  GOOD GRIEF!)

P1050287Yeah- everything that’s NOT combed is a giant knot.  A GIANT knot.

P1050249First cannula trial to high flow oxygen- it was SO GREAT to see those little eyeballs again!

P1050271Feeling good enough to sit!  (…and, of course, wave at everyone walking through the halls; we had every single employee of the PICU walk by, just to tell her “hi”.  That’s my girl.)

While we were there, she had her NG tube replaced I-don’t-know-how-many times, had close to 15 xrays, an EKG for funny heart rhythms, a dozen blood tests…  Looking back now, she was one sick kid.  Those first few days on the CPAP and BiPAP they had to keep upping her pressures.  I heard several times that if they couldn’t sustain her, they were getting close to the threshold of intubation. 

P1050278Child Life brought her a puzzle (amongst tons of other things!)- she loved it!  You could tell she was doing better when she decided she’d sit up for longer than a few seconds at a time!

P1050283First smile in over a week!  How great it was!

P1050298First meal in the PICU- she only ate some of the macaroni, but we took it!  She was pretty pleased, too!

You know how, when you’re in the midst of something, you just roll with the punches and take one thing at a time?  And then when it’s done, you can’t believe what happened?  That’s where I’m sitting right now.  Tomorrow is two weeks since we were admitted and we’re still here.  She’s officially off the oxygen when she’s awake, but she can’t seem to keep her sats up when she sleeps.  And since we were inpatient for so many days after her tonsillectomy last month, we know that this isn’t normal for her.  We’re not really sure what to do with her at this point; we could go home on O2 (which I’d really hate to do because I have no idea how I’d get her to keep it on…) but we’ve yet to figure out how far she COULD drop if she took the cannula off and we didn’t notice (insurance in CO, despite our high altitude, doesn’t like to provide an oximeter- nice, right?)  I’m hoping (more like praying) that she’ll snap out of it quickly and just not need it any more so I don’t have to decide what to do.

It’s easier up here on the floor because Addy can actually come visit (you have to be 2 to get into the PICU.)  It’s quieter (and darker!) than the PICU, but she’s still on isolation because she may have had something that was contagious (I get it- I really do- but it still stinks…) so all the providers that come in have to gown-up and wear masks and gloves when they come in.  She can’t leave the room at all, and we’re all starting to get rather stir crazy. 

Needless to say, this is not how I envisioned the month of September going.  Feels like I can’t remember a time when she was really well; she never really got over the T&A before this all hit (which is one piece that everyone thinks contributed to the severity of it) and I’m ready to have our little girl back- in full force!

Anyone live at sea level who’d like a visitor for a few weeks?  Piper and I could use a little vacation, and maybe the lack of elevation would do the trick!  Smile

It’s October!

Happy Down Syndrome Awareness Month!

How cool is it that I get to celebrate this:

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…all month long!

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

A Real Ghost Town!

When we were in Snowmass, we took a drive to find something interesting to see.  And by that I mean not so far Addy would throw a fit in the car, not so far a walk that we couldn’t get there with two kids, not too cold, but give the girls something to do, all at the same time.  I’m easy to please, right?

We took a winding road up the mountain side toward a little ghost town called Ashcroft.  It was a ways up (about 10 miles out of Aspen), but a gorgeous drive.  The trees had just started to change colors so the hills glowed with the yellow aspen. 

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The girls were glad to get out of the car (even though it was only 10 miles, it’s mountain driving- and took almost an hour to get there) and took time to stop and smell the flowers.  Literally.DSC_0184

The “trail” was made for little legs- flat and even, the girls loved the walk.  DSC_0187

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And after some sisterly love time…DSC_0204

…we were ready to go!  …to the <<ahem>> saloon.  DSC_0209

It really was a perfect place to take them- I was very hesitant to take Piper somewhere she would wear herself out too much (she was still only working on about 70% of her normal after her tonsillectomy, and she needed to go back to school on Monday!), so the little walk for them and the pretty drive for us was a win-win.

Piper did peter out about half way through and got the seat of honor.  How cute is this???DSC_0222

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And, really- look at this view.  Gorgeous, yes?DSC_0229

In the end, though, Addy was less than impressed.  It’s really unfortunate for her that she’s so cute when she’s mad.DSC_0225     DSC_0227

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

River Walking

Last weekend, we got to go on a mini-vacation to Snowmass (just outside of Aspen) with our friends.  It was so perfectly relaxing, calm, and cool.  9000 feet cools things way down- we needed it! 

On Sunday, we ventured out, drove toward town, chose a random road and headed up the mountain side.  We found a pull-off close to a calm spot in the river.  I was raised river-walking- if you pass a river that you can put your feet in, you put your feet in.  This was the perfect time for the girls to have their inaugural dip.  So we pulled over, stripped the girls of their pants, and dipped in.

They did not think it was the perfect time for the inaugural dip (see “9000 feet,” “cool,” and “pants-less” above) and not-so-politely informed me that it was wicked cold water.DSC_0173

I had to walk in the water about 10 feet to get to the sunny-and-calm spot that was safe for the girls.  Admittedly, my feet ACHED by the time we got there. 

Addy didn’t mind too much, surprisingly, and probably would have been willing to wade deeper into the water if I had let her.  Instead, I kept bringing her back to the bank- she signed “water!  water!  water!” over and over again.  I don’t think she knew that water existed in such quantities (yes, this little river that was less than a foot deep is BIG for us who live in the middle of Colorado.)

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Piper wasn’t very thrilled with it and was marginally willing to stand on the warmer-ish rocks in the sun.  She did not see what was supposed to be fun about this little trip.

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Learning to play in the frigid mountain streams requires that you slowly build up your endurance and pain/cold threshold.  We’ll be back. 

…but not until it warms up again!

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